I know I could get out of blogging tonight. I know everyone would forgive me. I realize there are no blogging police. No one would blame me because I am on vacation. I have been spending time with my husband and dear friends I haven’t seen in a long time. I have been making me time and taking care of me. Everyone would be happy for that. I wouldn’t be happy though.
My first massage instructor Barry Green once told me “You are the most disciplined person I know”.
I really didn’t believe him but, I wanted to. I still want to. I have a hard time figuring out when I am being disciplined and when I am being stubborn. Sometimes I wonder if determined and diligent are actually appreciated, misunderstood or used as an excuse to be OCD.
I get exasperated when clients tell me about their former therapists who didn’t answer the phone or return calls. Forgot or arrived late to appointments. Couldn’t remember their name or what they did the last time because they didn’t take notes or pay attention.
This blogging challenge is like anything else. It is a goal. It is a necessity, like doing the laundry, showing up for the appointment on time, returning the calls, paying the bills and really being there and connected with the client in every session. These things do not come easy to all of us. Some of these things are no fun.
I imagine it all like a walk. Sometimes it is easy, there are friends around or online or there is one really strong supportive friend right there with you. The path is clear and flat. Then it starts going up hill and you find yourself all alone. Then it gets even more challenging because the path is full of stones. Sometimes we just have to walk on the stones. We will do this because we must, it is why we are here. We walk on stones not just to not let others down but, to not let ourselves down. We can do it. We can walk on the stones.
The smaller stones can cause the most pain. The bigger stones can become easier. We can walk on these stones alone and together. As friends, as peers, as a blogging group and yes as Client and Massage Therapist.